...one day I'll have the ability to say it to my mom and the speed to run away. I just needed an outlet for the rage building up at this time.
I'm also having difficulty telling them the dreams I've been having. How exactly do you tell you parents you have a dream where you beat them to death and buried them in the dining room, but in the process of burying them in the dining room you found an empty box of cereal(cheerios) which brought up the memory of a blonde haired woman who did the same thing except it was to her children and husband. It was so fucking creepy. That's not the only dream dealing with them. Before yesterday's dream, I had a dream that we were at a festival and I was walking around, through flee markets and around a parade where gold coins were thrown. Anyway, I got to this bridge and my parents met me there in the white car, but an old guy was driving the car. My dad came out of the car and asked "where's fluffy?" She was below the bridge. She climbed out and a triangle formed- me, my dad, and Fluffy. Something is going to happen to my family. I need to understand everything, if it really means what I'm getting. I don't think I can stand waking up with tears another morning. LATER
SIDE NOTE TO KALAN: I meant that you were very happy, not that you would skip around.
7/23/2004
7/22/2004
A wierd update
A few entrees back(6/16 I think) I talked about a wierd dream taking place in the airport. Well it continued this morning( I fell asleep at 1:00). We went to France, and were playing around in an old house with chipping white paint and two or three floors. Everybody was there except lauren( don't know why, maybe an exception). We're going through the hall on the top floor. In one room Ashely( yes Ashely, from Japanese class) is sitting down playing a game with some people and Peter was like "that bitch , she got us in trouble last time." We almost weren't allowed to go on this trip because of what was going on in the room at the airport. Anyway, we went passed them into another room which was dark and creepy then into a room that was empty. Geimer was walking around with a cane that had a jewel on it(pimp cane?) and a game started with everybody stealing the cane from who ever had it. There was something about the room that made everybody strangely happy( Kalan and Quita were skipping). Something bad happened. A moment of great happiness then sudden and great pain. Sounds like a prediction, doesn't it? Not as good as Ms. Cleo, but just as vague. LATER.
7/19/2004
He's Here
Christian Manuel Rodriguez- Born 18 July 2004 at 2:50 am; Weight- 6lbs. 9oz. 19 in. long
He is a has the skin of his mother(but he may darken), the hair of his father(dark brown and forming curls), and blue eyes for right now. I'm going to see him the first week of August, which may be a problem depending on when Peter comes for a visit.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUITA!!!! I called her this morning, but nothing wrong with saying it again. I'll give you your gift when I see you. Sorry you had to work!
I got a 3 on the AP exam.
Fortune cookie thought: Don't count your chickens before they hatch. I'm fearing the rest of the week. Not so deep, but it's my thoughts.
He is a has the skin of his mother(but he may darken), the hair of his father(dark brown and forming curls), and blue eyes for right now. I'm going to see him the first week of August, which may be a problem depending on when Peter comes for a visit.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUITA!!!! I called her this morning, but nothing wrong with saying it again. I'll give you your gift when I see you. Sorry you had to work!
I got a 3 on the AP exam.
Fortune cookie thought: Don't count your chickens before they hatch. I'm fearing the rest of the week. Not so deep, but it's my thoughts.
7/15/2004
Third time's a charm
My sister-in-law is on her way to the hospital for the third time, this is my third attempt to write a blog entry, and this is my third day back in the office. Get the picture.
Well yeah, I think the doctors are going to get annoyed and force the baby out. My mom is on the phone interrogating my poor brother. I should help or something, but have no true experience. I'll update and invite everybody over to my house or something when he's born.
The true reason for the blog. I told my mom I would mention the receptionist job(mom job). It'll be open in August. Ron is pretty flexible. You would type, answer the phones, file, run errands, and be the first person people see when they walk on the door. You cannot cuss people out(fake happy), look like you have nothing to do, or play online games. If you want the job, leave a comment. I have mentioned it.
Next item, I WANT TO SEE THE GROUP! That's my birthday/leaving for college wish.
Fortune Cookie Thought: every person in the world has one person who thinks about them at least once a day.
LATER
Well yeah, I think the doctors are going to get annoyed and force the baby out. My mom is on the phone interrogating my poor brother. I should help or something, but have no true experience. I'll update and invite everybody over to my house or something when he's born.
The true reason for the blog. I told my mom I would mention the receptionist job(mom job). It'll be open in August. Ron is pretty flexible. You would type, answer the phones, file, run errands, and be the first person people see when they walk on the door. You cannot cuss people out(fake happy), look like you have nothing to do, or play online games. If you want the job, leave a comment. I have mentioned it.
Next item, I WANT TO SEE THE GROUP! That's my birthday/leaving for college wish.
Fortune Cookie Thought: every person in the world has one person who thinks about them at least once a day.
LATER
7/09/2004
My family's path
I've get to get this off my chest.
It deals with my family, go figure. I'm the freak of the family in so many ways!!!
The Explanation:
I have no problem having people eating meat around me. I just want a little support in my decisions. Don't ask if I want a bite of the hamburger. The answer is no. Also a warning would be nice for food that has had meat in it. For the second time, my dad has gotten me sick by giving me the food and taking out the meat, but not telling me(I avoid the kitchen when they're cooking out of being polite). My mom is like just eat it and there won't be any problems. They don't like change. There's the family path- get married young(before 25) join/marry a man in(for the women) a government agency, and have a baby soon after marriage. Everybody is in some form of Christianity and they can't live without meat, my uncle said he was going to be a vegetarian, but didn't last two hours(literally, my grandma made his favorite meat dish). I feel better with this realization. LATER.
It deals with my family, go figure. I'm the freak of the family in so many ways!!!
The Explanation:
I have no problem having people eating meat around me. I just want a little support in my decisions. Don't ask if I want a bite of the hamburger. The answer is no. Also a warning would be nice for food that has had meat in it. For the second time, my dad has gotten me sick by giving me the food and taking out the meat, but not telling me(I avoid the kitchen when they're cooking out of being polite). My mom is like just eat it and there won't be any problems. They don't like change. There's the family path- get married young(before 25) join/marry a man in(for the women) a government agency, and have a baby soon after marriage. Everybody is in some form of Christianity and they can't live without meat, my uncle said he was going to be a vegetarian, but didn't last two hours(literally, my grandma made his favorite meat dish). I feel better with this realization. LATER.
7/07/2004
Back from my brother's house. Didn't do much, I didn't even get time to be alone with Rob. This was the most annoying because that's when he tells me what he really thinks about everything going on. I know something is bothering him and that's bothering me. It's more than Christian, who's coming any day now, and the animals, he's distant. Maybe I'm reading too much into it.
I'm back to my research of everything supernatural and occult. I need something to fill my days. I feel something brewing, more than college and those changes. It bothers me, so I research other things to keep from thinking about it.::sighs::I don't know what else to do.
I want to go outside to watch the sunset and listen to the coming storm, but my parents are outside working and they will ask too many questions. They think any change in me is cause for worry. I want to go into the country, but during the night. I want to be swallowed by shadows and sit in silence. The shadows of the cave before it was touched by humans. I see it as it should be and shiver at the thought of perfection in darkness, or maybe ignorance. You can't see it, the dirt or evil or whatever it should be called, therefore it is perfection until the light and noise come. Does that make one perfect? Does that make one a nothingness? Does that make for another form of death? A death without dying. Stuff to ponder. I think and want too much. LATER.
I'm back to my research of everything supernatural and occult. I need something to fill my days. I feel something brewing, more than college and those changes. It bothers me, so I research other things to keep from thinking about it.::sighs::I don't know what else to do.
I want to go outside to watch the sunset and listen to the coming storm, but my parents are outside working and they will ask too many questions. They think any change in me is cause for worry. I want to go into the country, but during the night. I want to be swallowed by shadows and sit in silence. The shadows of the cave before it was touched by humans. I see it as it should be and shiver at the thought of perfection in darkness, or maybe ignorance. You can't see it, the dirt or evil or whatever it should be called, therefore it is perfection until the light and noise come. Does that make one perfect? Does that make one a nothingness? Does that make for another form of death? A death without dying. Stuff to ponder. I think and want too much. LATER.
7/02/2004
In a few hours I will begin a six hour car ride with my parents to my brother's house. I could have gone to Panama City if I so chose, but my parents would like that too much. At my brother's house, they will be put to work cooking and helping in renovation projects. I will be allowed to lie around because I just get in the way. A useless creation.For the past two weeks I have been unable to leave the house 1) My car was put in the shop to try and get the air conditioner fixed and my parents needed their cars, 2)I had my wisdom teeth removed, 3) When the swelling finally went down on the right side of my face(only the right side became swollen),I twisted my ankle, 4) the swelling went down ankle, then the stuff to keep food out were removed and the doctor poked me in the gum and I may now have dry socket. It wouldn't have changed much, I always try to disappear during the summer. I thrive in isolation for some reason. Anyway I need to go pack. LATER
6/18/2004
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I'M SOO BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!LATER
6/16/2004
HI!!!!!!!!!!
This past Saturday, I met my roommate, Katie. We played skeeball for a half an hour and got to know each other. She told me she didn't want to room with one of her friends because it may break the friendship. I told her none of my friends were coming. She was like "oh." I told her I don't eat meat, she was on the Atkins diet. I'm like that's cool, but she's like I won't eat meat in front of you. I told her I don't like too many bright colors, she showed up in a bright green t-shirt and bought a bright pink curtain for the closet. This is going to be interesting. I think everything will be fine once she figures out how relaxed I am about things.
I'm kind of pissed off at my mom. She told me since the middle of the year that I would have a job. I did everything I needed to do in a week and a half. I spent two days just sitting on my ass then just said if you need me call me. I AM SO BORED. I keep getting told this summer will just fly by, it's going so fucking slow.
Anyway I had this weird dream that deals with the group. I'm in an airport with the entire school is there, but I'm looking for the group because the plane is about to leave and the security was doing a drug check, but I couldn't find any of you guys. I ran the entire airport and right before I got to the final room I woke up. I got the feeling everybody was there.
I think that's it. LATER
This past Saturday, I met my roommate, Katie. We played skeeball for a half an hour and got to know each other. She told me she didn't want to room with one of her friends because it may break the friendship. I told her none of my friends were coming. She was like "oh." I told her I don't eat meat, she was on the Atkins diet. I'm like that's cool, but she's like I won't eat meat in front of you. I told her I don't like too many bright colors, she showed up in a bright green t-shirt and bought a bright pink curtain for the closet. This is going to be interesting. I think everything will be fine once she figures out how relaxed I am about things.
I'm kind of pissed off at my mom. She told me since the middle of the year that I would have a job. I did everything I needed to do in a week and a half. I spent two days just sitting on my ass then just said if you need me call me. I AM SO BORED. I keep getting told this summer will just fly by, it's going so fucking slow.
Anyway I had this weird dream that deals with the group. I'm in an airport with the entire school is there, but I'm looking for the group because the plane is about to leave and the security was doing a drug check, but I couldn't find any of you guys. I ran the entire airport and right before I got to the final room I woke up. I got the feeling everybody was there.
I think that's it. LATER
6/09/2004
I'm back from the GA Southern orienation and for right now I have the perfect schedule. Nothing comes before 10, at least a half an hour gap, and no classes on Friday. But that's not official. Anyway the entire experiance was creepy. All these happy people. Almost all the girls looked soo skinny, I was worrying about falling and crushing one of them. The school has a huge and just about everything is walking distance from my dorm. The library is open 24/7. I signed up for this program for minority students and made a couple of friends, which was cool. I have to go to work. LATER!!!! PS: I couldn't stand the green anymore and needed to change the looked.
6/02/2004
Ok, unless I get different information, nothing is happening on Thursday. For those people who want to go to the movies on Friday, I'm going to get my ticket tomorrow, so if you want me to get you one and just pay me back later let me know.
Today marks a month without meat!!! I've been demoted at work to filing for the moment, but that's fine with me. My roommate and I have been e-mailing each other. She's seems cool. We're trying to arrange a meeting, sometime before getting to the dorms.
I thinks that's everything. LATER.
Today marks a month without meat!!! I've been demoted at work to filing for the moment, but that's fine with me. My roommate and I have been e-mailing each other. She's seems cool. We're trying to arrange a meeting, sometime before getting to the dorms.
I thinks that's everything. LATER.
5/29/2004
I'm back from Six Flags. It was all good, until the final rollercoster. At first the seat was too loose and I almost fell out during the ride. Then at the end, while everybody got off, my seat remained locked, but nobody listened to me and kept pushing it down. It stayed like that and they almost couldn't unlock it with the key, which was stupidly made, so one has to stick a rod through a little hoop which is hard to get when somebody is in the seat. I was wondering why the lady before me was crying, I felt like crying. Anyway, I totally recommend Superman, you lie down and look at the ground or the sky, not the tracks. It's so cool.
Special AnnoucemenT: ThurSday, Harry Potter marathon(I think it's still on, somebody please tell me!!!) and Friday at 4:30 at the new theater, Harry Potter 3. You can come to both or pick one.
I think that's all. LATER
Special AnnoucemenT: ThurSday, Harry Potter marathon(I think it's still on, somebody please tell me!!!) and Friday at 4:30 at the new theater, Harry Potter 3. You can come to both or pick one.
I think that's all. LATER
5/26/2004
Alright people, I have heard very little from many of you people and it makes me sad Are we or aren't we keeping T.N.T. around? Is it going to move to a different date? We need to find days that intercept if that's true.
Anyway here's an open invite: Six Flags($42.99- 34.99 on-line) or White Water( $29.99- $26.99 on-line) or both on Saturday. Six Flags has the offer of bringing in a coke can and get a free ticket when you buy one.
Do what you want with this information, that's where I'm going.
LATER.
Anyway here's an open invite: Six Flags($42.99- 34.99 on-line) or White Water( $29.99- $26.99 on-line) or both on Saturday. Six Flags has the offer of bringing in a coke can and get a free ticket when you buy one.
Do what you want with this information, that's where I'm going.
LATER.
5/24/2004
Alright, graduation is over with and I finished my first day at work. The best news of all...there are no extra people in the house and I got my room back! It's nice to see my family and all, but I would prefer them stay @ a hotel or something during the night. Anyway, after work I went shopping for some office clothes, then I came home and finally e-mailed the person who may be my room mate, as well as my brother. Finally I would like to thank those who came to the BBQ and say to Peter: you missed the only person who would have commented on your shirt to your face, except in Spanish. I'm going to bring some of the roast pork, which my mom froze, for everybody to try on Thursday, but it will take about an hour at low temperature to reheat(that's what my dad told me to do) Speaking of Thursday, I'll be there at 5:30-6:00, so please call me if you guys are going to be some place else. That's all for now.
Blessed Be!!!!!!!!!!Peace!!!
Blessed Be!!!!!!!!!!Peace!!!
5/18/2004
SPECIAL NOTE: This entire week will hold my complaints
I can't get into an account on GA Southern because it was cancelled because of one too many attempts made by the only other people permanetly living in this house, but they shall remain nameless. They put the same password I put in over and over again because your only allowed a number of letters or numbers and they try to add stuff, instead of leaving it and me alone. I want out of this house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Later
I can't get into an account on GA Southern because it was cancelled because of one too many attempts made by the only other people permanetly living in this house, but they shall remain nameless. They put the same password I put in over and over again because your only allowed a number of letters or numbers and they try to add stuff, instead of leaving it and me alone. I want out of this house!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Later
5/15/2004
Nobody is here yet and I already wish them gone. This is suppose to be about what I feel at the moment, but, for them, I must play a happy hostess. I resign to screaming only in my head as this time is used for birthday parties and special annoucements, then, for just Saturday, they celebrate my graduation. They even planned everything in such a way that I will barely ever see them because I'm in school, they leave next Sunday. Later
5/14/2004
Hey!!!!!
I had nothing to do during lunch so I decided to do a quick update. Starting Saturday my house will be filled beyond capacity and by next Friday, I'm getting sent to my neighbor's house because mine will be over stuffed with people. I just found out that another aunt will be coming by and she has five kids, no clue where they're going to stay. My dad came during second block to remind me to get the extra tickets, they just don't trust me. Yeah, that's it in my life. It's so boring @ home!!!!!!!!!! Blessed Be!!!!!!!Peace!!!!
I had nothing to do during lunch so I decided to do a quick update. Starting Saturday my house will be filled beyond capacity and by next Friday, I'm getting sent to my neighbor's house because mine will be over stuffed with people. I just found out that another aunt will be coming by and she has five kids, no clue where they're going to stay. My dad came during second block to remind me to get the extra tickets, they just don't trust me. Yeah, that's it in my life. It's so boring @ home!!!!!!!!!! Blessed Be!!!!!!!Peace!!!!
5/05/2004
Which America Hating Minority Are You?
Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons
Which Enemy of the Christian Church Are You?
Take More of Robert & Tim's Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim's Cartoons
Which Phase of the Greek Tragic Cycle Are You?
Take More Robert & Tim Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim Cartoons
yeah it's been a wee bit of time since i updated, so here it goes. Mad Mad house is over and Jaime, the stripper won. I've been having issues with my sinuses and those quizzes raise interesting questions within me. Am i really all that violent? I have tons of restraint otherwise i would have been the real life Jason or something.i am not the dog of satan and i have no plans to swear allegiance to the dark lord, but i have contradicted the catholic church, but i do not blaspheme the Lords name. Oh well, it doesn't matter, i have a headache now. That's all for now.
Blessed Be!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peace!
4/25/2004
HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's been awhile since I've updated. I'll start with mad mad house, which is about to end in such a disappointing way. None of the three are ones that I wanted to win, but there's nothing I can do about it. I will say that my parents don't mind me staying out until 11:30 and watch until the end. My parents came back Friday at about 9:00 pm, right after I got back from Cheddars, which was pretty good, they make good mudslides (it was nonalcoholic). They brought back three porcelain doll-a native American boy doll from Texas,one big doll with long feathers on it, and a small one in a tiger costume. Anyway, the foreign language fair on Saturday was fun. I don't know CSU very well, so Peter had to meet me in the parking lot. I talked to people, kicked some ass in a card game, getting 4,000 yen. MY kite didn't win, but that was just fine with me, hope Helen doesn't mind if I keep it. My parents left for August today for a doctor's appointment at 6:30 in the morning. Hopefully it will get him a higher disability rating, he's at 20% right now. I think that's all for now.
Blessed Be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peace!
It's been awhile since I've updated. I'll start with mad mad house, which is about to end in such a disappointing way. None of the three are ones that I wanted to win, but there's nothing I can do about it. I will say that my parents don't mind me staying out until 11:30 and watch until the end. My parents came back Friday at about 9:00 pm, right after I got back from Cheddars, which was pretty good, they make good mudslides (it was nonalcoholic). They brought back three porcelain doll-a native American boy doll from Texas,one big doll with long feathers on it, and a small one in a tiger costume. Anyway, the foreign language fair on Saturday was fun. I don't know CSU very well, so Peter had to meet me in the parking lot. I talked to people, kicked some ass in a card game, getting 4,000 yen. MY kite didn't win, but that was just fine with me, hope Helen doesn't mind if I keep it. My parents left for August today for a doctor's appointment at 6:30 in the morning. Hopefully it will get him a higher disability rating, he's at 20% right now. I think that's all for now.
Blessed Be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Peace!
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